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Saturn Retrograde in Aries: A Soul Mirror for Radical Self-Worth & Shadow Release

This morning, I was struggling.
Sad.
Angry.
Resentful.
And deep down, confused that I still feel this way sometimes.

If you’ve ever woken up with the weight of rejection on your chest…
like your heart is bruised from being misunderstood,
or like the people you love the most secretly dislike you…
you’ll know exactly what I mean.

I wasn’t just disappointed.
I felt hated.
Truly hated.
And it broke me open.

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🛑 Slipping Down the Frequency Scale

I could feel it happening— my vibration was plummeting.
If you know the Scale of Consciousness from Dr. David Hawkins’ work,
you’ll understand what I mean:

• Grief sits at 75 Hz

• Fear at 100

• Anger around 150

• Shame—the lowest of all—at just 20 Hz

And there I was, tumbling down that scale like Alice down the rabbit 🐇 hole.

I didn’t want to journal.
Didn’t want to meditate
Didn’t want to hear another “just let it go” voice in my head.

So I asked for guidance, out loud:

“Show me. Speak to me. I need something real.”

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🚘 A Strange Drive, an Unexpected Podcast & a Pink Flag 👚

With no plan and no energy,
I got in the car and drove—45 minutes away to a random shopping area.
Because driving helps me think.
Or at least interrupt the spiral.

I had a podcast on. Something familiar. But then… it flipped. Randomly. Out of nowhere, a new episode started playing, one I’d never heard before.
And it was by Dr Kristen Holmes on The Science of Sauna for mental health…

That got my attention.
I didn’t even think twice, I drove home, grabbed my towel and swimsuit, and made my way to the gym. I was ready for something—anything—to shift.

And that’s when it happened.

Outside the gym, I saw a big tough looking guy in a bright pink T-shirt.
Bold. Almost neon. I couldn’t miss him.
He had a baby in his arms. A toddler at his side.
His partner was busy folding a pushchair beside the car.

And as I got closer, I realised, it was my mate, a childhood friend. I saw him most days at the gym but hadn’t run into him for a while, and had sent an intention to catch up with him just a few days ago. Here he was in a bright pink shirt, with his beautiful family.

We smiled. Hugged. Wished each other Happy Sunday.
No big emotional scene.
But it was emotional.
Because in that moment, something clicked inside me.

The Universe was speaking.

“You’re on the right track. Keep going.”

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🔥 The Sauna Download

I went straight into the spa and began Sauna Bathing. No workout for me today, I was eager for another sign. And that’s when it came.

A lightning bolt of a message.
A truth that hit my gut with such clarity it made me tearful with gratitude:

“The only path to true self love is to love yourself more than they hate you.”

I stopped breathing for a second.
Because it was true.

All the pain I’d been carrying, the rejection, the betrayal, the perception that I was being hated, actually wasn’t about them at all.

It was showing me where I hated parts of myself.
Where I had turned away from my own heart.
Where I was still outsourcing my value.

So I asked Spirit to explain. And the reply came instantly:

“All moods and emotions are reflections of your internal state.
What you feel externally can only resonate if you’re holding an energetic match internally.
If you feel hated, it’s time to love yourself even more.”

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🪞 Saturn Retrograde in Aries: A Mirror for the Soul

This episode wasn’t random, of course.
Saturn turned retrograde today in Aries, the sign of Self.

For me, Saturn is now moving through my 12th House, the realm of shadow, soul contracts, the unconscious, and past life residue.

So this wasn’t just a funk.
It was a spiritual exorcism.
A karmic cleanout.
A shadowy invitation to Pause. Hold Space. And Allow.

That’s the Backward Love™ way.
And it’s also Saturn’s way.

Saturn in Aries retrograde doesn’t ask you to go back in time.
It asks you to go deeper into self-truth.
To take radical responsibility for how you show up in your own life.
To strip back the noise and say: Am I still trying to earn love… or am I finally ready to give it to myself?

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💗 Loving Yourself More Than They Hate You

That line kept echoing through me.
Love yourself more than they hate you.

Not in spite.
Not in arrogance.
But in devotion.
In truth.
In frequency.

When you’re caught in external conflict—especially with people close to you—
that tension is not an accident.
It’s a mirror.
An invitation to notice:

• Where am I still seeking love from a closed door?

• Where have I abandoned myself to make others more comfortable?

• Where have I mistaken rejection for truth?

And then… to choose differently.
To bring your frequency back up not by forcing it, but by meeting yourself again.

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🎧 Tools I Used to Lift My Frequency

In that moment of clarity, I didn’t need to “fix” anything.
I simply followed these steps.

Here’s what helped me:

• 🔥 Sweat it out in the sauna – literal energetic detox -and it’s true the heat does support mental health.

• 💡 Recognise the synchronicity – the pink shirt, the old friend, the shifted podcast.

• 🧘🏽‍♀️ Listen to my Frequency Elevator Activation (link here) – a nervous system re-tune.

• 🕊️ Stop fighting the emotion and let it flow – grief doesn’t destroy you when you hold it.

And from that, I found a new state:
Not joy. Not yet.
But clarity.
And that’s enough.

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🌀 So What’s This Saturn Retrograde Asking of You?

This current transit …Saturn retrograde in Aries, Mercury slowing down in Leo, Mars activating the South Node—is not chaos.
It’s conscious correction.

The themes?

• Identity

• Self-love

• Autonomy

• The soul’s voice versus the people-pleaser’s thoughts.

So ask yourself:

• What am I holding onto that makes me feel hated, envied, betrayed, unloved, or unworthy?

• Where am I still trying to perform, please, or be perfect to avoid rejection?

• What would change if I loved myself enough to walk away—or stay—without needing external approval?

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💌 Over to You

If you’re in the emotional fog, this is your invitation to pause.
To feel it fully.
To ask for a sign.
And to receive, even when it arrives in strange ways like pink shirts, unexpected podcasts, or a voice in the heat.

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Until then…
Love yourself.
More than they hate you.
More than you ever thought you could.

You’re the only one who can.

With Backward Love,
Sherile x